I desperately want to know my future. I want to know what will happen. Which friends will stay, who will I leave behind, who will I lose. Will I feel this for long??? Will this desperation ever reduce...
There is one comforting thought though.... God ony throws that much at you that you can handle... N recent events have shown me that I've turned into a rock. I can pretty much overcome anything... I have to thank my support system - It's pretty fantastic...
The less I expect, the less dissappointed I'll get. Keep yourself safe... Don't hope for anything, dont trust anyone, dont love so you'll never get hurt... I might as well die then... N what the hell, this too shall pass...
Dinshaw complained that my blogs have too much angst n I used to be a lot more cheerful... Inspite of everything I write, I think at the end of the day, I'm still happy n grateful. Just a little more wise n cynical... But I dont think its a bad thing...
One promise that must be kept- I wil never go back..... Another resolution- dont listen to drunk men, they'll only regret what they say in the morning... I need to respect myself more... I need to realize that I deserve better... stop waiting n stop forgiving... dont let people take you for granted....stop being available...dont answer certain calls...it's ok to let go of people...
N i dont care who gets hurt by this blog... Im hurt too
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