I'm Back :-) / :-(

I came back from Kerala Sunday night... It was a great trip, very green, clean n pristine. N it was good to see the family again too... Good to catch up on all the family gossip... Good to see how much i still love n hate my aunts and cousins... It was nice praying for and to amooma as well. I'm sure she would have loved the whole jing-bang getting together and going on the trip... i missed her...

Now that I'm back I miss home.. I want to stay with mum n dad.. I can definitely do the fabric design bit from Bangalore itself... I again realise that I don't need friends, I need family... I don't know if that's a good or a bad thing...

I'm like water I think. I take on the color that is poured into or around me... So I spend time with one person n I become like her/him. If I move away for an extended period of time then I start judging and disapproving of the person.

I'm also a prude when it suits my convenience. My opinions keep changing. I want to let go and hold on to people randomly without any real reason, either way. Understanding the motive, doesn't necessarily justify the action... N I'm sick of double standards, mine and others'

I want to go home... I just need to decide where my home or my heart is...